exactly what it says on the tin, babey.

so remember last time when i said that it had been "forever" since i blogged? hah. hahaha. lol. lmao, even.

i figured that i would've had more things to say about this -- maybe an apology? a frantic explanation as to why i've not been updating? but in reality i just haven't wanted to blog for the last month. i'm pretty sure that's due in large part to the fact that i took off my instagram app timer, which has hilariously meant that my mental health has sort of tanked. i didn't manage to sleep last night for a while so... i have since put that timer back on! oh and while we're here: acab, land back, free palestine free palestine free palestine.

the other obvious thing is that getting settled into my new job has taken a lottt of my brain power and energy. which is genuinely awesome! i am enjoying my current gig quite a lot, though there is currently some corporate fuckery going on about redundancies and expanded responsibilities which is making me feel a bit destabilised. i think i'll be okay, at least for a while, but the middle of the year always feels kinda touch and go. lease stuff and paperwork stuff and also TRAVELLING and also MAKING GOOD ART... woof. so much stuff i gotta think about!!!

currently i am writing and drawing a comic entitled "how to talk to white people" and i'm thinking i'm going to have to give it a full revamp. i'm finding that it's not saying what i want it to say -- originally i wanted it to be a bit of an ambivalent piece on the necessity of silencing yourself in order to survive, but increasingly i am very unsatisfied with that angle. it feels like my relationship to being non-white is moving so quickly and expanding so rapidly that every art piece i make about it comes short, gasping.

so i'll probably rewrite it!!! and i gotta start drawing it properly too (i'm envisioning a stark blue/orange painterly kinda style for it, which is not really my wheelhouse lmfao). i gotta figure out when i'll do that... oh and i need to do emails too... and dishes! augh!! i am feeling quite stressed and fragile a lot of the time recently. but i'm glad i remembered this blog. i enjoy writing and it's important to give shape to my feelings, even if (or especially because) it's not being read by any other people.

stay kind, best of luck. talk to you later.

-aries