feeling a bit better about things
hellooooooooooooooooo :) another short personal update for today! i've not been in the mood to work on any flashpoint retrospectives, so i'm not gonna work on any of 'em. however i have been in the mood to work on poetry, so i've started submitting my work to places again. i go through months-long periods of exhaustion regarding submissions, then i come right back around with A THOUSAND THOUSAND SUBMISSIONS ALL AT ONCE RAAAARGH and then i stop again. i've set an absolutely lucrative goal of 100 unique writing submissions for this whole year, and i'm on a grand total of i think 7. onwards and upwards!
mostly i have not been writing poetry that i'm necessarily proud of, but i have been writing poetry that feels honest. which is always the goal ain't it? and emotionally i've been feeling a bit better (largely bc i started my new job today and financial instability is much less of a concern rn) so that's a win too. today i finished reading Frank O'Hara's Meditations in an Emergency, which is another poetry win. and some stuff i wrote has come out too! wow. so many Things Occurring. it's hard to figure out if i'm doing "well" in my writing career, but things keep happening and the ball is always moving, so i feel that i can't complain too much.
my new job is going great! i've only been working for a couple days lmfao, but it's SO MUCH BETTER than waiting tables. i love SITTING DOWN AT WORK i love ACTUALLY HELPING PEOPLE i love MANAGERS AND COWORKERS WHO RESPECT MY PRONOUNS. still getting set up and situated, and i'm still being pretty intensely trained, but things are also way easier. not fixed obviously, i'm still depressed lmfao, but any improvement is huge and ought to be celebrated.
-aries